Sweeping Underneath the Rug

If you know me at all, you know I am a pretty laid back go with the flow type of person. I embrace change(really!) and try to take things with a grain of salt. I don't like to sweat the small stuff - it's no way to live and only encourages negativity. I am not a person who can handle an abundance of negative thoughts and feelings because they will drag me

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Therefore, I do not let things that don't matter in the long run get to me. I prefer to concentrate on the bright side of life - I've lived in the dark side, I don't need reminders of what lurks in those murky corners of my mind. I try to always look for a positive in any situation and firmly believe one can always be found. If there remains no positive side - it's right around the corner. Life is what you make it..and I make mine worthwhile. 

Unfortunately, the tendency to look for the good and ignore the bad, at times means I look over things that do matter and need to be dealt with. I try to brush off things that do bother me down to my core, and tell myself it is not worthwhile to dwell on it. Most of the time it isn't, but there are times when sweeping things under the rug is not beneficial to anyone involved because nothing is being resolved.

Another little tidbit about myself; I can't stand confrontation! I would rather just keep issues to myself and deal with it internally than to come to a point of confrontation with someone. It is uncomfortable, undesirable, but sometimes needed. This week I confronted a situation that has hardened my heart to someone I love for years, perhaps my entire life. 

I realized life is too precious and too short to just let those who matter to you trespass against you and never say anything. It is a great possibility they never realized the effect of their actions, and if you don't at least try to save that relationship - you never know. I couldn't live with that regret when their was a possibility of fixing something that had been broken. 

So, I spoke my heart. I was completely honest and direct even though it was terrifying. And guess what? The person on the other end was more than receptive to what I had to say. I have no doubt in my mind things will improve exponentially and I will have another shot at building a strong relationship with a loved one.

I am committing myself to facing my problems and not pretending like they aren't there. I pray that I can continue to assert myself in a positive way when it is needed for the improvement of my life or someone else's. Fear of consequence when change is needed does nothing but squander relationships. Sometimes all it takes is a sincere heart. Resolve your issues with one another - it is the only way to love whole heartedly.