Killing you is killing me

My love, my partner, my best friend.

I am so sorry.

Please forgive me for doing this...

and know that I am hurting with you.

For you.

..for us.

 And our babies,

and our life that we will still have

Just not together.

So much remains unseen,

and unanswered,

and unknown.

I do know this,

WE WILL SURVIVE THIS

All of us..

and we will be better people for it.

Whether you understand that now,

or not.

I have just found a strength that you aren't comfortable with knowing yet...

and for that reason there is nothing I can say that will make you understand. 

Please don't lose yourself.

If nothing else,

make the best of this.

Look inside and search for answers within

Seek and you shall find.

I promise.

Keep faith, keep going,

You will find happiness

When it is RIGHT

We have done everything wrong

And I cannot go back...

just forward.

I'll always be there

and you will always be a part of me.

Be strong my darling.